RE Visit

I have totally had the best start to the blogging universe – total MIA moment! My bad!

To make up for it I have an update. Turns out the RE had a cancellation and we were able to get in a month earlier than planned which is really good considering what she said.

Basically yes I have PCOS, I have to do a whole bunch of tests for her – which is actually great, the more information we have the better! And we are not allowed to try until the New Year at the very earliest. Long story short – I’m too fat! Even if I did ovulate, which is not happening at the moment – thank you VERY much PCOS!!, I am so overweight that she doesn’t hold out hope that I’d be able to carry to term without complication.

This sent me into a little meltdown. Despite the fact that I have lost the “recommended” 5-10% of my body weight to try and resume ovulation with PCOS it’s not enough and I still have to wait before I can get any help.

Despite how bitter I may sound I get it – and hopefully in the long run I will appreciate it when I have a beautiful, healthy baby in my arms – fingers crossed xox
THE PLAN: lose as much weight as I can before January – would LOVE to be under 200 pounds, currently 234 – and try to get hubby to refrain from the NTNT moments that he has had in the past week – I didn’t try and stop him mind you – so that I don’t get in trouble J