The crazy cycle of emotions

This week has been a crazy cycle of emotions. The first thing I felt at finding out my new diagnosis was absolute shock followed not far behind by anger - I think this was pretty obvious in my last post. This lated until I met with my new specialist this past weekend and I became determined to sort this out - after all no babies for me until I do! I got to the point the night before this appointment where i was looking up how surrogacy works in this country - crazy jumping the gun shenanigans I know but I just needed some kind of worst case scenario for me and I could see this working really well for us and how we could do it (it also made me really passionate about making surrogacy a lot easier to access - and more legal than it is now as for some couples it is a wonderful option and it is just so hard here - ill hop off my soap box now as I really have very little information about it and my opinions are only minimally formed - I am also really aware that whilst this blog is primarily for me I really do not want to offend anyone!) Now that I have had some tests done and am having more scans and appointments next week I am just resigned - lets get this show on the road and sort it out ASAP - the sooner the better for my health and the chance at future babies.